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A Very Merry Christmas

I hope everyone had a great Christmas. Christmas was extra fun this year - my six and sixteen year old nieces were in town. It's been so long since I have been able to spend some time with them! The six year old is an absolute hoot - never a dull moment. It was wonderful to see the excitement through a child's eyes again. And, the younger one loves her Uncle Marty so much! She kept wanting to dance with him the way they danced at our wedding - how funny she remembers that moment. While the older one is not as outgoing & prefers the laptop and phone over family time, it was so good to spend time with her as well. I love those two girls & miss them.
To top off a great Christmas, Marty and I actually got to spend two entire days together - it was the best! It is so rare that we are home all day on the same days. Our days off never seem to match up!
The only downside this year was the family telling me I need to have a baby there next Christmas. I know they mean nothing by those comments, but if they only knew how bad I wish this could be true. Most of them don't know that Marty & I started trying to have a baby in April. January will make month 10 of trying & month 6 of being on medication. In the last few months I have been through an array of emotions - excitement, disappointment, sadness, jealousy - you name it, I've been there. And, it seems as though no one really understands. I know a few people who tried for years to get pregnant that I could talk to, but I don't feel right complaining to them - because 10 months is such a small comparison of time to their years of trying. Then there are the others who could get pregnant by simply saying the word baby. I definitely can't talk to them, as much as they try to understand. Despite all of these emotions. I know this is not in my hands, and when God decides the time is right we will be blessed with a baby. For now, I will spoil my nieces.

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