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Anyone Else?

Today I found another friend is pregnant. If you are keeping tabs, I have now found out that 5 people close to me are pregnant. If anyone else would like to announce their pregnancy, now would be a good time. I mean, hey, at least they wait until 2.5 weeks after the girls before the first one told me, right?
I am trying to be happy for all of them; it's not their fault I'm infertile and lost my two daughters. But it sucks, because I feel like after they tell me their news they start retreating because they don't want to upset me. This does nothing but make me feel lonely. There can be a happy medium where we can be friends and acknowledge your pregnancy. I would just prefer not to hear you constantly complain about being sick, tired, or miserable when I would love to be any of those if it meant I could have a baby to love on Earth.

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  1. Hey I found your blog through Faces of Loss. I lost my baby boy on February 17 at 32 weeks. I'm so sorry for the loss of Gentry and Savannah. I so know what you mean about pregnant friends. I have had a few that were scared to tell me too. But mostly I have about 20 that were a few months behind me and now they are all going into labor and bring their babies home.
    Message me anytime.

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