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Six Months

This past weekend (Saturday & Sunday) was the girls' six month birthday. Marty and I were in San Francisco on vacation, and I can't think of a place I would have rather been. Saturday was beautiful - perfect temperatures, lots of sunshine, and a calm peace.

I finished reading "Heaven is for Real" a few days before vacation. I think that book was a huge blessing to me. I HIGHLY recommend it to anyone who has suffered the loss of a child. I was bawling reading it, but it soothed my aching heart in a way nothing else has.I feel like I may have reached a turning point in this journey. On their 6 month birthdays, I just had the most peaceful feeling, not the extreme sadness I was anticipating. I think the book and a full week away were exactly what my heart, mind, and soul needed.
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I miss my baby girls and love them with every ounce of my being, but I am ok.



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  1. JessicaAugust 29, 2012 at 9:28 AM

    I loved the book Heaven is for Real, and I experienced the same sort of peace and calm after reading it. I loved learning about Heaven and what my precious boy is probably doing there. It brought me great happiness. I too cried, just a little though. I am so glad you had a good week in San Francisco for the girl's birthday.

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