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7 Months

It has been 7 months today, and I have no words.Other than I miss my baby girls like crazy.

I know some people don't understand my pain because I wasn't full term. But, I don't think it's something you can truly understand unless you have been pregnant - a mother's love. I only knew my girls for 19.5 weeks, yet I love them with every inch of my being and it started at day 1.

One of my closest friends is going in to be induced tonight at 10 pm.

If she goes quickly tonight or waits until tomorrow, her baby boy will be born on the 7 month "angelversary" of one of my girls. It's not as significant as the 6 month or 1 year milestone, but it still hurts.

Seems to be the way my year is going.

I love you, S & G.

Comments

  1. MSeptember 25, 2012 at 9:22 PM

    Thinking of you and your girls today, and always. ::hugs::

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  2. Ryan, Jessica, Jade and Ronan ArmstrongOctober 3, 2012 at 8:13 PM

    You don't know me, but I just wanted to say I know that pain all to well. I had a loss 6 hours short of 20 weeks due to Incompetent Cervix and it was the hardest thing I have ever been through. I was able to hold my baby in my arms and I couldn't imagine how much love that I had for that little thing and how much it hurt missing him in the days passing (and even now a year and a half later). No matter what anyone says, you had that baby in you for months, if that is not bonding I don't know what is. My best friend had her twins on my due date and no matter how happy you are that they are able to have such a beutiful thing it still hurts like crazy. And that hurt comes back when they hit their milestones. Love and prayers your way (even if I am a stranger, we ladies have to stick together!) You inspire me! Keep sharing. I love your blog!

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