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It's Fall!

Saturday was the first day of Fall, so I took new Fall flowers out to the cemetery. I also made the final payment on their headstone, so it should be down in a few months. I will be so glad once it is put in and the temporary marker will be gone. I have felt bad for months that they only had the little plaque and not a real headstone.

Fall has always been my favorite time of year, but I am having a lot of mixed feelings about it this year. This time last year we were gearing up for our first IVF cycle. So I am anticipating going through this Fall with the "one year ago" mentality, starting with my first injection to finding out we were expecting twins. So I am praying for the strength to make it through all of those important dates.

The one good thing about Fall this year - I can enjoy my Starbucks. It's the little things that help me get through.




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  1. I love Miss Savannah and Gentry's fall arrangement. I too, went and placed an order for fall flowers to rest on Jake's headstone. I am ready to have them there. I feel your pain and understand you being ready to have their headstone in place. Jacob somehow didn't even have a temporary marker, so it was so empty feeling at his gravesite. I know their headstone will be a beautiful memorial for them. Hope you have a good day!

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