We initially decided to do our second FET the week of September 17. However, after talking about it some more, we have decided to hop off the IVF roller coaster for awhile. Even though we want another baby more than anything in the world, it just doesn't make sense financially and physically to try again right now.
I think my body is so confused on what it is supposed to be doing that I want for it to figure itself out before we try again. It has been 9 years since I have had a period without being induced by birth control or some other hormone. And now, my body has decided it wants to have two cycles in one month - even while on birth control. I need to get this right before I can think it would be ok to try to get pregnant. I would hate to try another FET with my body this screwed up.
So for now the plan is to hold off any IVF plans until next year. Not to say that come October or so we won't be changing our minds if my body fixes itself and we have the funds. But, for now this is what we are going to do. It hurts to put the dream on hold for awhile, especially when my friends will be having their babies soon. It hurts so bad.
“All I want is a family, like everyone else I see. And I won't understand it if it's not meant to be. Sometimes it's hard to conceive, with all that I've got, and all I've achieved, what I want most before my time is gone is to hear the words "I love you, Mom." And I want to know what it's like to bring a dream to life.”
Lyrics from Kellie Coffey's "I Would Die For That".